It is just so disheartening to hear how set in his mind he has all of this. I mean he literally has the entire divorce planned, how we are going to act, our relationship, it is so set in stone. No deviations. And what is crazy to me is he still has me and him being close, staying close, and so many things still the same, but he thinks we will get a divorce, maintain all that, and move on living like best friends. Meanwhile it just rips my heart out to hear it all and have to try and be positive and accepting and not fight over it.
He left a little bit ago, we worked on the units and had dinner together with the kids. We were very productive and we get along pretty good. It just hurts to feel like I'm never going to be able to bridge that gap. He is truly keeping the friends wall up. I didn't even try to touch it though. When he leaves I always get a big hug, I usually kiss him on the side of the neck when he hugs me and we say I love yous. We are officially at dysfunction junction.
Do you think this marriage can be saved, or has he already became too set on his path to be able to open his eyes to what could be? I'm not giving up, I just can't, I love him too much, but I just feel like it is a little like ramming my head against a brick wall sometimes. I think I see progress and it turns out it wasn't really what I thought it was. He's moved into the friend zone and I'm still stuck at the love zone, and now I really realize how I have to keep that to myself a bit more to keep from freaking him out and driving him farther away.
