I haven't posted for a couple of days, it has been rough here. I had counseling and met up with my husband afterwards to talk and I guess it freaked him out. I was positive acting, but I went too far with telling him I hoped we could try spending time together every once in awhile without the kids and just see how that felt. Big mistake. I didn't even realize how big.
The next day he called and wanted to meet up for lunch. I was excited and thought it was a step towards what I had said the previous day. It wasn't. He wanted to talk and reaffirm that he didn't want to do anything like that, he didn't want to take steps to work things out, he had already concluded that our marriage was over and he wants to work out the details and move towards our separate lives. I became upset and ended up crying and asked him when he was planning on this divorce scenario and he told me after the baby was born, in the fall sometime. Yes, I did everything wrong. Emotion got the better of me. I cried the rest of the day off and on and just feel sick. It is so hard to hear him talk like that and then we are together so much it is hard not to get my hopes up.
