Not sure where to start, Part 2

[wishing, hoping]

That's what I am doing. Losing the anger. Losing the negativity. Being upbeat but at this point he thinks it is fake but I fully intend to become a better me. My kids already see the difference. And I feel better too. Well, all things considered.

That is one thing about H. He calls so much at times he blows up my phone. I see him every day and we still sleep in the same bed although he doesn't touch me (no romantic feelings, remember). No contact and going dark work well with him because then he reaches out. But it doesn't really change anything. He still wants D. In fact, he wants to sell our house and buy side by side condos. It just makes no sense to me.

He can't miss me when he sees me every day. Maybe if he didnt see me he would miss me. That's why the OW is so wonderful. He only sees her on the weekends. For only four months now.

Trying not to be discouraged. Whatever will be will be