Not sure where to start, Part 2

[wishing, hoping]

So this day has already got my head spinning. H told me he couldn't go to S soccer game tomorrow because he promised to go to "someone's" first communion. I know it wasn't DB but I couldn't help it. I said "you're kidding, right?" He said "no, I promised." I just walked away in fury before I exploded.

He followed me and said we need to talk. He confessed about OW. Said he wasn't proud and he messed up but he never intended for it to happen. The romantic feelings for me just weren't there anymore and she was just a good friend that he could talk to. He said it never turned physical until after he filed for divorce.

He still wants us to be great friends and co-parent together. In fact he even wants us to buy side by side condos because it would be better for the kids??

He said my negative attitude over the years switched off those feelings. I told him I understood how he felt and I wish I could change things but I cant. I did tell him however that his leaving every weekend was affecting and hurting the kids. He told me it was hard to balance it out. I told him our kids should come first. Period.

So my head is spinning and it isnt even noon yet. I have to let him go, I understand that I have no control over his actions. I also can't believe anything he says anymore. I feel like giving up completely. I can't compete with the OW when he has the fantasy to run to. But on the other hand if he is lying to me he is more than likely lying to her as well.