This week has been a much better week for me. I have been feeling more postive about my life. Me and the boys without H.
My sister and I are planning a cruise in june. I probably shouldnt be spending the money but I need a break and it works out to be pretty cheap since we are in Florida. I hope the boys will be ok with grandma... don't want them to feel like both parents have left them.
I know that we will be ok without him but I still feel a longing for a the family we had. Probably always will though right?
I have talked to H more this week than I have in ages. I usually just hand the phone off to the kids. Not sure why I have been answering the phone but we have been talking just about the kids or random stuff but he seems less angry with me. He actually talks back. I am trying not to read anything into it but sometimes I hope that means something more. I don't know how I think this can change he is 4000 miles away. I don't think he has found a job, I ask no questions.
Part of me thinks I should just go to the attorney and give him H address in England so we can get this going and the other part just keeps hoping things will change. Everyone in my real life thinks I am crazy and why haven't I had him served yet. I did file in Nov but never had him served. I just can't really give a good reason why.
Off to the movies today with the kids then S7 friend is spending the night. 3 little boys in one house will be a crazy night!!
