I didn't see it coming part 2

[breakdownbill]

Hi Bond

I really appreciate your input and you're right about some of my attitudes not being DB, these are just some of my issues i'm wrestling with internally at the moment. I really think that the IC session hit some buttons, which has made me think about some stuff which is not healthy for me right now.

I know that my W has stopped with all the text messages to the OM and her actions over the last few weeks have made me think that she is just dancing with him. When she goes dancing she's got a few close girl friends that she talks to there as well. I mean it's not an ideal situation, but it could be worse.

I've been taking stock on how we've been getting on and I've only been mentioning the negatives on here. This morning we were both playing with S6 and we were laughing talking about our trip to Florida in June.

I think I need to just lower the bar and stop setting expectations to high to justify what my actions may or may not be - ie moving out.

The ML has been really good whoever initiates it post the bomb and we do talk during and after. My W's guard is still there but I think progress is being made.

I think since there has been no pressure, things have been a lot better between us. once my degree is finished in a month, I'll have so much more spare time and we've got that holiday coming up as well so I can see opportunities for things to improve.

Your right though about the changes and I am doing them for me.

I know that this is going to be a long journey and I think in some ways I have been on a roundabout this week, a bit like Clark Griswald in National Lampoon's European Vacation when he can't get right. I just need to get back to what I was doing and keep working hard.

Thanks for the wake up Call Mr Bond I needed it.