Im really doing ok. I feel like I've done all the grieving and letting go process this entire year.It's been a bad year, and I've spent the majority of it very depressed and so sad. Infact today I've felt a sense of relief and freedom, yet still just sorrow this had to turn out this way.
And I agree with you snodderly, the divorce is just a legal paper, that's all it is. Heck that's all that legal marriage is as well.
What will truly bring me down is if I find out that they're getting married or have gotten married right away. It doesn't seem that the all MLCers go out and get married right away. I'd like to believe that the total disgust and repulsion he showed me when I asked if he was going to marry her 7 months ago was or still is the truth. But I have to accept it's totally over and what he does with who is none of my business unless it affects my children.
I don't understand why he would talk so rudely or carelessly about them living together 7 months ago to me. What I can't get over still to this day is how he had her in the wings and was living with her and sleeping with her but acting like my best friend! He was sending me dirty jokes on my phone!?!?!?! Hello? That sure doesn't sound like someone getting divorced to me! Acting in such a way I thought we were actually reconcilling and starting to piece things together! He wanted to come over and clean the house and yard up with me and have a garage sale last summer, all the while he's nailing twinkle twat?
I still swear he's got bi polar 2 or dysthymia. I've seen that man be high as a kite for months and then dive down for months, then to come on the radar for a few hours of being amongst the living, to down again. What I saw 2 weeks ago...looked like he was diving down again.
Seriously? Is this part of them expecting us to remain right where they left us and expect to come and go and still have what they want whenever they want? I feel like he has OW in the exact place he wants her and then he still tries to keep me in the exact place he wants me. When I say no... well you know what happenes then!
As far as I know their living together has only been for 9 months. His sitch sounds really weird from what the kids have said, but then again Im not sure I should really take what they kids say very seriously. What I do know is the OW stays away from the kids and makes very little to no effort to try and connect with them. However interaction between Xh and Ow i hear about every now and then and it stings, let me tell you it does.
On a happier note, we finally have nice weather here and I can't wait to work on my yard tomorrow. Im very tired from working late last night, getting 4 hours sleep and then back to an insane day at work again, but hey it's friday!
