I just... want H to be better! I just... I don't know what I want.
I know what I don't want. I don't want someone who makes up trivial crap to be pissed about. I don't want someone who changes the rules to the game because they no longer like those rules. I don't want someone who will threaten me with things they know I fear or try to go for the gut with things they think will hurt me the most. I don't want someone who can't say they're sorry. I don't want someone who can't admit when they're wrong. I don't want someone who lies.
And right now, H is all of that. And right now, I don't want him.
I want the man I married. Or at least the man I thought I married.
