W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore-P3

[Snowman]

Update-I talked to my church leader about my situation as I having been laying low in the aspect of life. It was good and he was aware we were separated.

I had some fun rabbit hunting with some buddies today. It was good to get away and just enjoy the outdoors. I did come home way tired and decided to skip on my S's soccer practice but my W had him anyway. I called to let her know I was not coming and to please bring his soccer stuff when I get him tomorrow so I can have him ready for the game. Honestly I didn't want to go to soccer practice because I just didn't want to see my W. I still have something deep down inside of me that just can't let go or something so when I see her it just bothers me or frazzles me. Detachment issues still there I guess.

She did ask me to have our S next Friday so she can run her race Saturday morning. I said that was ok but after hanging up I realized I just catered to her schedule again. Part of me knows that if I don't watch my S he will end up with one of her girlfriends that I don't even know or my W's father's house were drinking, smoking, and other things go on in front of little kids that are not good. My S is the only victim here when I don't take him. I'm I just a fool for watching him for her or what:(?

No update from her L on revising the papers nor has she mentioned it. Not sure where that is going?