thank you all for the responses. I hadnt heard any for a while.
I dont know how long it's going to take before I quit working on saving the marriage, and start working more on myself. I know that's what I'm doing. Making myself a better person is the only thing that can bring back my wife. The me she saw the other night was not the man she wants. I feel that is why she was uncomfortable with me being there. She didn't want to discuss the R and I did. All she sees is me pushing again. Have to get away and let her be. Why is that so hard for me to do? Must get back to detaching.