Those are called "triggers" and they are perfectly natural. They lessen over time as the trust between you rebuilds and you can lower the wall you've built up to protect you.
Just take things one step at a time.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
