am i better off without him?

[scaredsilly]

thank you. that's very good advice. however, my stomach gets into knots when i think about trying to talk to her. we have not spoken since the time i went to see her in december.

i could call her but i'm sure she would see it's me and not answer. i could text her but she probably wouldn't reply.

also, with her father and i separated and with him living with his mom, i wonder if she would feel she doesn't have to communicate with me. i'm no longer in good standing so she will have even less respect for me.

do you think i should ask her father to facilitate a meeting between the two of us? i don't feel as if i command respect from either of them right now and they may feel i'm overstepping my boundaries without his blessing.

but without a better relationship with her, i know he will choose to stay apart.