More like self loothing is what I am doing. You are exactly why I came to this site. The little words of encouragement that you give help so much. It is much easier not looking someone in the eye that I know and saying I still have feelings for this girl then it is to say that to someone that knows us. Because, I am not biased or being mean when I say she has some of the worst problems, caused me the worst problems of anybody on this earth. She really cares about only herself but can make me believe anything. Others see right through her. Her own parents and brothers hate her. I have been bailing her out of trouble for 11 years. It is my addiction that I have to quit or it is going to take me down and down badly.
