Yes, Yes, that was a good post. I would agree that I too have an addiction or co-dependance on the need for her to love me. If anything I am downplaying the extremites in her life right now. She is out of control and has no where to go. She is not acting herself at all but I have seen this behavior from her before and it usually ends up with an OD. (5 or 6 times) I don't particurely enjoy being around her when we are together. She really annoys me much of the time. And sometimes it is great. When I broke it off this time I was doing pretty good because she was begging me back. Well, she went and got another man and now I have done a 180 and I want to beg. I am not. I sent 2 emails a couple of days ago(wrong to do I know). But that will not happen again. I will not have contact with her again. I have to go cold turkey. My addiction is just as bad as hers. It is just as self distructive. I can't eat, work, or do anything without worrying. She might do the suicide thing but I am more likely. Don't worry. I am doing ok right now. But I am very scared that I might start to spiral out of control which I have done in the past. Things just eat me up until I just almost go crazy. I am really scared about it. If I am on this site than things are getting bad for me.
