I packed up some of her stuff and took it to her parents house yesterday. They did not want it and told me to sell or throw away the rest of her stuff so I am stuck with it. I know the steps-focus on my own life, become a better person and I am starting but dang it. I think I have an addiction to this person. I can't live with her and I am sad as hell without her. Co-dependent. I am not suicidal like I was last time we broke up but still sad. I know time will help. I need something quicker. I can remind myself of the bad things only so many times a day to keep myself from missing her. She was so mean the other day when she called(she was with new man). I ask her how the heck she could have sex with me wed and move in with someone else two days later. She hung up. He could hear what I was saying. She will lie and say it wasn't true. But I don't understand how she could do that. Beg me to marry her and two days later hook up with someone else. She says he treats her with respect and she is going to marry him. That she wasted the last 11 years of her life with me. That stuff really hurts me and I don't know why. I can read my own posts and know that I should be happy as a lark that she is gone but I am not. I am emotional. I am not ugly and can get other dates. I just don't want to and I know that I am not ready.
