Not sure where to start, Part 2

[wishing, hoping]

Okay I am ready for the good days again. Having another bad day. H and I went over paperwork for D. He is so ready for this and it hurts. It hurts beyond anything I have ever felt in my life except for when my father passed away. It feels like he is turning me in for a newer model. I know I should not empower the other woman (girl) but I can't help it. My pride is really taking a beating here.

Went to my doctor last night to let her know what is going on. She gave me a RX for something for depression/anxiety. The pharmacy was very far behind so I wasn't able to pick it up last night so I will start today. At this point anything will help.

Another appointment with the counselor today. Seriously this has not even really begun yet and I don't know how I am going to pull through this in one piece. H seems to have his act together. I try to not let it bother me, but my skin is thin. I feel like confronting him but I don't think it will help our relationship at all. But I feel like I am going to explode.