Sorry for the hurting. Don't worry about comparing your time in this sitch to others. I would guess regardless of how long any of us have dealt with our issues, its hurt almost all the way through in some way.
You're going through a crisis like the rest of us. That doesn't minimize your hurt at all. I understand the idea of not wanting to share. Withdraw is part of my own defense mechanism and I've even noticed I do it on the boards and limit my contributions when I've just had too much to deal with.
even in the midst of my pain, it kills me to watch H struggling and hurting my mind says.. he chose this.. this is the consequence.. and my heart says.. i don't want you to hurt anymore.
This is just a hard place to be. I go through this same conflict almost daily. For me, the hard part is knowing that my attempts to comfort or support are rejected and therefore, I am rejected. That's painful.
You can work through this pain. You've done it before and you can keep doing it. It suxx, but you know you have the strength. ((BF))
Me:45, W:45 S:16 D:13 M:22, T:25 Bomb: July 2010 Putting finances in order for "D" Continue to live in same home-separate rooms
