i didn't mean to dismiss how you feel about how h. is hurting. I never see it in mine. but that is a valid feeling for you. it's just that we are on your side. but you get to feel whatever you want to feel. i think it is part of the process. you love him, just like i still love mine. you still care, it is a hellish sort of thing. jeez, so many feelings, maybe try to stay in the moment. that sort of helps me. there is time. you have little ones, one day that will occur to him and have some influence on his thinking. i just don't know but think that will have some power in your favor. Feel better barely, we care.
