Barely, i get it. I pretty much know in my heart my h. will never look back to me. The only thing getting me thru is that maybe??? someday??? in future??? he will get that he left something really good. and for now, that is all i can hope for. that time will help and if not i will be a better person. I'm not even thinking about someone else in my future. That thought just makes me gag! to do this all over, i know i will need to work on that in future, but for now. no. i know it is harder because of your little ones. what an idiot. he has a quality woman in you and babies. don't doubt yourself. you are not invisible. we all see who you are, he doesn't right now. You are not hurting him, he is hurting himself, in the long run. Remember, a marathon, not a sprint. keep focus on you and kiddos. he is the loser in all this. not you. time will tell. you WILL be ok. that's how i'm choosing to look at this fu'd sit. we will be ok. they are the ones losing out because we have chosen to look at ourselves. take care
