I didn't see it coming part 2

[breakdownbill]

I think my last counselling session has affected my thinking more on my sitch, since I've had time to reflect on what I was saying and feeling.

I think I'm only just realising exactly what my W's infidelity means to me & I've got some real soul searching to do, because I'm not sure if this is a deal breaker for me.

I've started to notice more & more the way my W is short & speaks down to me. She conveys no respect or emotion for me & she is still a WAS and behaving like a (not a nice person)!

I've started to realise that she uses sex to keep the status quo, so she can keep on doing what she wants in this (dis)functional relationship.

I feel like throwing in the towel & walking away today, because besides protecting my kids from harm, I don't know why I'm trying to save this M.

I'm just going to keep on my own path of improvements & do what makes me happy. My kids happiness are still my priority, but I'm just having real trouble picturing a healthy relationship with my W again.

I don't know how I'll feel in the future, but right now, I want out and think that's where I'm headed. I'm not even bothered about being with someone else I'm just tired of being treated like a doormat and have had enough.

I'm not going to make any snap decisions, I've still got a month before the R talk 'ceasefire' is over, so I don't know how I'll feel then.

Bill