I'm so sorry. I'm equally sorry that moderation is delaying your posts at this time. You will be approved shortly.
Forgive your wife. Just do it. Just begin again. Be kind, patient, it will pay off GREATLY in the end, you will never regret that. There is ALWAYS time to cut things short. Right now, open your heart to as much understanding as you can.
Be good to yourself as well. Cut yourself that same kind of slack, while giving yourself no other out but...improvement.
