Light at the end of the tunnel?

[Redo]

Journaling...

I thought i'd change my signature a bit. But i think it is big.
W and I have been in this mode for a lil while now.

I'd say we are piecing now.
W has been asking me(not directly) as to when they(she and my daughter) can move back.

About 8 months ago, i would have been jumping up about this. Now i find myself asking the question "why does my heart not feel this immense joy or love toward wife". I have not told her this. I told her that we can soon sit down to figure out the logistics of the move back.

I guess in my heart i am lil apprehensive and non-emotional. Non-emotional because i dunno, i feel that my heart has become a bit cold. I keep trying to consciously develop feelings for her. Now i have decided to stop trying that and let nature take its course. I am hoping that our increased contact should bring back those feelings....