Had dinner last night as a family for my D's(13...now 14) birthday. We wanted to give her a "normal" birthday. We went out and my wife agreed for me to pick them all up and then go from the house. Probably to save gas for herself. The night was great...we laughed as a family, had a great dinner...and then went back to the house for cake and presents. We (W and I) sat on the deck for about 25 minutes and just chatted...no talk of us...just innocent conversation. It felt good...but of course felt horrible when I left to go back to my lonely 1 bedroom apt.
W still seems distant and I believe last night was mainly for our D...and not anything else. It hurts so bad...and is so hard not to hold her. When we were driving home from the restaurant, I almost put my hand on her leg, as I always did when we were driving. I caught myself and apologized, saying old habits are hard to break. she looked away out the window for a couple of seconds...not sure how she felt about that.
Me:44, W: 39 D:16, D:14, D:11(special needs) M:17, T:21+ Bomb:3/18/12 W contacted mediator for D:3/27/12 Separate since bomb Mediation, signed agreement 5/17/12 No talk of D since mediation
The night was great...we laughed as a family, had a great dinner...and then went back to the house for cake and presents. We (W and I) sat on the deck for about 25 minutes and just chatted...no talk of us...just innocent conversation. It felt good...but of course felt horrible when I left to go back to my lonely 1 bedroom apt. 
