Feeling very at peace today. I realized a few days ago that this really isn't about me. Initially I was embaressed by the things I thought I needed to change about myself- ranging from starting to wear nicer pajamas instead of the shorts and t-shirts I've worn to bed our whole relationship to starting to eat meat again- even though my husband was always supportive of my decision to go vegetarian I thought maybe this was now bothering him as he used to find recipes to make me online and over the past several months leading up to "the bomb" we basically stopped eating together never mind the same foods. Now I realize these are not BAD things about me, they are who I am and I'm not changing them. I'm willing to work on our relationship issues but not compromise who I am, and I will not accept the blame he is trying to place on me.
Me-32 H-31 M-1yr, 9mos/T-6.5yrs No kids, 3 pets H estranged father passes away- 8/11 Bomb- 1/15/12 Began LRT- 4/1/12