BOMBSHELL was dropped today....

Found wife and OM at a park today for a meetup (youngest daughter was in tow as well). I'm devastated. Find out that this was scheduled since Sunday. Filled with anger, disappointment, and betrayal over this. Can there be any way back from this?

We've lied sooo much to each other these last few weeks that I'm tired of it....I want to trust her, she wants to trust me....how can two people begin to restore trust in each other when there's little to go on?

Should I forgive her for this? I'm not sure why, but I think I want to....Should she forgive me for the lies and spying that I've committed? I want her to.

I want to forgive (and her forgive me as well) for the sake of our family....for our kids, the possible future...I still believe in the belief that this can work. Am I a fool for thinking this? Can there be a return to happiness if we can work through this?


Me (34), W(30)
3 kids (7, 5, 1.5)
Married 9 years