"Why did I marry into this crazy family and why oh why am I standing for this marriage!!! Especially when it is completely clear he fully intends to get this divorce!!! ARRRRRGGGGG!!!!"
"Just don't know what to think. I am so worried about this impending D. I try to take things one day at a time but it is so ovewhelming. I just don't understand why he is so dead set for D. Like he can't wait to get rid of me. : ("
"I think it is very odd how the "happier" I am (or if I am the woman only a fool would leave) the more miserable and angry H seems to be. If I am down and upset, he acts like he doesn't have a care in the world."
Originally Posted By: wishing, hoping
Feeling strong all day and then boom...a down period. I hate this roller coaster. Just when I think I am starting to detach I find something else to suck me back in. Today obsessing about OW and our marriage vows. Keep thinking about how we were always the "it" couple. Other couples used to comment how happy we were and how great we were together.
I know I need to "thought stop" but in my defense I am still relatively new at this.
WH Just wanted to say that the above could have come out of my mouth. I SO know what you are feeling.
It helps me to know that I am not alone in feeling this way, and I hope it helps you to know that too.
Not sure if I should keep on being happy/acting 'as if' and doing the lovingly distancing thing given that it seems to produce a negative reaction from my H. But really, other than pursuing, what is the alternative?
