OT - Thank you, thank you, thank you. The more I processed through this in the last 24 hours, the more I came to those same conclusions. My life is only about ME. I am the only one that can save me and make me happy (yes, I knew that already but actually focusing on that as a goal has been a struggle) and regardless of what happens and Gabe's attitude toward it, this has to be my focus.
You pointed out that this is a breakthrough. I'm so happy you see it that way because it upset me so much that I was afraid it really meant I was backpeddaling into my old self and that JUST CAN'T HAPPEN! I won't let it. Whew! I'm taking this eye opening experience as the push to do better for myself.
I'm sitting at my desk reading through what you all wrote and I'm crying (hiding it as much as I can from my coworkers). I read your experiences and it makes me so sad for all of us. We all have had such unhealthy experiences but we continue to grow through them. Thank God! I would hate to see what happens to those who don't.
Hugs and blessings to you all! Time to get back to some fun now! All these deep conversations exhaust me! LOL
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
I've decided to blow my budget (not crazy like but just a little) this weekend and treat myself to a pedicure, a haircut, and lunch out. Now, don't go bashing me too bad about it. I have a gift card for the pedicure which will cover most of it. Gabe gave me money for the haircut for my birthday (since that is what I asked for)and since I haven't had it cut for 9 months, it's totally out of control. I have a gift card for lunch too! Come to think of it, I'm probably not going to be putting out more than $20 from my own pocket.
YEA ME! LOL
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Happy bday Mish!!!... that is the first thing im going to do when I finally start getting some money, a trip to the salon for the hair, pedi and maybe even some color. its been a long time since ive done any of that and I feel neglected!!..:)
When i was over on infidelity your were a major source of support for me, ive always taken your advice to heart, so you must know what your doen..lol you deserve to be happy and be loved!! Your awesome!!
Me:48 H:42 M: 18 yrs. S: 9/1/09 due to alcoholic H D bomb: 9/9/11 OW confirmed 10/30/11 D papers filed 11/01/11 S15 S21(Special needs) S28
Look to yourself, It is there that all your answers are found...
Happy Birthday! I stayed up late watching movies and wanted to get the first wishes on the day in. You make sure your boys treat you right. You are a queen for the day, but make sure that you are a kind one. Lol
Big hugs sweetie. kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
