Needless to say, I'm having good and bad days emotionally with everything. Today I guess would be a bad one compared to others.
Going to work actually isn't that much of a release because I sit in front of a computer all day so it's hard to keep my mind off things. W works later than me most nights, Mondays and Tuesdays she gets home after 9 and Wednesdays and Thursdays after 7, so when I get home I have a lot of time on my hands to think. Add in that we've basically been living apart in the same house for almost a month and it's just too much time alone to not think about things. It's just me and the dog, who W had to have but has always left to me to walk her in the AM or before bed.
As I mentioned in previous posts, I'm trying to do a few a different things to GAL but up until now most of what I did revolved around her. I never had a problem with that because if I was able to make her happy then I was happy and I thought we had a lot of the same interests but I guess in retrospect none of that helps me now.
I've been running with a few co-workers after work (again, I hate running), Sunday softball has started, I have Yankee games to go to like every other weekend, and this 5k idea that I started seeing if some friends were interested in. I'm doing my best to fill the hours but a lot of that stuff I'd either do with her or she'd be there supporting me so that part of it [censored].
M: 29 W: 29 T: 12 years M: 4 years Discovered OM: 02/10/12 ILYBNILWY: 03/01/12 W Moves Out: 05/04/12 Reconciliation Starts: 09/06/12 In-house Separation (Again): 03/09/13
