I think you are coming to a resting place. It may not be a permanent resting place but it will do for now.

i do believe i am, labug - and it feels more real, in a different way. and it's true - separate paths.

the trick for me right now, is to catch myself right away when i start thinking about h or the sitch or what he said/did etc etc. and STOP IT right away and turn my focus to something else.

i'm also telling myself (when i start worrying or thinking about how i am going to deal with this or that with him), to just trust that i will know what the right thing to do or say is in the moment when it's needed.

as KD said - i need to be myself - and trust that who i am is enough. that is what he was attracted to at first, and i believe that is what is making him so conflicted now. he maybe screaming and shouting right now, but i can sense the conflict even stronger

me 46 H 38
M10yrs T 11
S10
BD ow 8/11
h filed 9/25/12


"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"