zig, I agree with cat, I think you are coming to a resting place. It may not be a permanent resting place but it will do for now.

I also like KD's post, the WAS has their R with the universe, we have ours.

Separate paths.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss