So I had a really rough morning today...I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night and woke up very early to a lonely and quiet house. I decided to start on some of the reno's but I was having a really hard time getting motivated. I broke down a little around mid morning and started to wonder why I was even bothering? Why should I spend my time creating the home we planned together when now she doesn't even want to live in it? I contemplated just leavin it as is, half torn apart. Before lunch I had a very large delivery of supplies and it was overwhelming. I had a friend stop by and help me haul the stuff inside. It was nice to chat have a beer. As the day went on I started to feel better about things. I started seeing progress in the house and it was a good feeling.
Since I left on Sat my W has texted me several times everyday. She has been helping get my things ready at the condo so I can just swing by and pick them up while he is at work. Her messages have been very nice, asking if I have what I need and if there is anything she can do for me. Today she asked if I would come by tomorrow and move some of the heavier furniture to where she would like it. My initial reaction was anger. If she wants to be alone then she will have to figure out how to deal with these things without me! I didn't actually say any of that to her. I tried to be very cheerful and accommodating but I also made it clear that I can't run all the way across town every time she needs something moved. I hope I'm doing the right thing. I'm trying to put on a confident, cheerful front despite how I feel inside.
