I just want to be friends...Pt2

[breakdownbill]

Hello Yankee

Hey sounds like you are making good progress all round here.

Maybe you are right that the EA is over, either way for you, there's no way of knowing either way if there was one or not without finding out about it. But in the long run it really doesn't matter either way, what they did or told you. What matters most is YOU and you are definitely living that mantra now & doing great.

What you were talking about your friend attracting married men, doesn't surprise me. Sometimes I think people try to get what they can't or shouldn't have - and don't think they'll get caught or about the hurt or consequences it'll bring.

Being cheated on is one of the worst things I've had to deal with & it still hurts when I think about it. But, it is getting easier with time & I'm really starting to detach now.

I really don't know if I want to get back with my W now & the more I think about it, I wouldn't choose to be with somebody who has treated me the way she has/is.

I'm not going to bring up R talk, but if she brings up separation after my course is finished again, I'm not going to argue about it, I'll take some time out to be on my own and move out.

I think unless, something major happens with W to change my outlook. For example if she starts making positive changes & starts to regain my trust, I would want this separation to happen.

I'm not throwing in the towel, by any stretch of the imagination - I want my family to be together & for our M to be stronger and happier. But we don't always get what we want & I'm not going to let it get me down.

In fact I've been doing great, had a really good day @ UNI today, check out my thread.

YC I'm really happy for you, because where you are at right now is so much healthier & things will only get better from now on in.

Bill