The issue of being in Limbo and advice given by those came up in another forum today. Due to a power outage I was stuck in the elevator for 2.5 hours without power. Lot of time to sit and reflect.
Is it better to take things day by day or simply acknowledge that my R is in a state of Limbo? Don't know how to answer that one and see the pros and cons of both approaches.
In my head I have an internal timeline of where I want my life to be 1, 2, 3, and 6 months from now. Keeping a little check list of where I am at with my kids, job and W. Keeps me focused and when I am getting down on myself lets me remember where I came from and where I have been.
Is it possible to happy and miserable at the same time? I love the connection I now have with my kids, the time I spend with my W and the family. I then am sad b/c I want so much more. I then tell myself to step back.
Maybe this is vacation hangover, but we all had such a good time. Actually it is usually like that when we are all hanging it. If things are going good, why then do I insist that the other proverbial shoe will drop with my W?
And really up to this point none of her actions have really hurt me (taking the ring off, changed F/B status, and met with L). Maybe since she is saying nothing I am assuming that she is still proceeding with the D.
I can't read her mind (or anyone's mind) for that matter so I should just relax. I know that I have to be patient with my W if I want to have a R with her again.
I think a couple games of Chutes and Ladders with D6 will settle me down tonight.
