Young and the restless? No it's Older and Patient

[Seminolewind]

Update with a strange twist,

You know I think everything in life happens for a reason. The weather where I live was extremely dangerous over the weekend. The forecasters did an outstanding job getting the people that live in my area prepared. I know that others were not as lucky and my heart goes out to those folks.

Here is my update with a twist. As most of you know that have been following along on my journey, my ex had been spewing anger toward me over the last month or so and I put myself in a position that I wasn’t going to deal with anymore drama. Saturday night after our cities second tornado warning my ex called me and asked me to come over. I asked her why? She said please bring D12 and come to my house. I again asked why? She said just please come over and she would explain when I arrived. I told her that I would be over in a few minutes, thinking she was scared about the weather. When I arrived she asked D12 to go lay down in bed and we would watch the weather and wake her if needed. My D12 went to bed and my ex and I sat on the sofa and talked. My ex told me that she knows she has made plenty of mistakes. She told me the divorce was the best thing that has ever happened to her because it opened her eyes to reality. Too many things were said by her for me to remember them word for word. So I am just giving you the down and dirty version. She opened up and told me everything and said that I was free to ask anything. She said she would be an open book with information. Through tears she told me that by making all of these mistakes, it has filled her mind with knowledge that she thinks she is supposed to pass on to other people. I really wish I would have recorded the entire conversation. Needless to say my chin hit the floor. She asked me what I thought about trying to restart our lives together. The first thing I asked her is why after I had finally given up any hope, did she have a change of heart? She said maybe I needed you to truly give up on me, before I could see what I truly wanted in life. I told her that I couldn’t put the girls through the emotional roller coaster ever again. I told her that I couldn’t just rush in and think things were just going to be perfect. She said she knows what she put all of us through and she knows it’s not something that can be fixed quickly. I told her I needed to think things through. She is willing to give me the time I need to figure out what I want.

She has already told her family that this is what she wants. She asked her dad to come up and stay with her for a while. She told my sister that she really needs some father daughter time right now. He is going to be here in the next couple days. I have my impenetrable crust formed and don’t even know what to think. I still love the woman I married, is this her returning? I refuse to set myself up for failure or more poor behavior. Can anyone tell me what I should look for specifically? We talked in depth about so much stuff my brain is mush. I thought I was confused when this crap all began. I need to step back and think things through and figure out if this is even what I want. Ask me questions and give me some advice.