Don't be so hard on yourself about the backtracking Hurt.
It happens.

I rememeber when my sitch began, I found myself spilling my guts to "everyone", it hurt so bad.

Two steps forward, for every step back, K?

Me 53 XW 50
M 18 Years +2
S14 D19
Bomb 10-24-10
Served 1-27-11
Mediate 4-21-11
Civil D Final 6-2-11
No church anullment
"A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."