My Story So Far. Is this even worth saving?

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Journal: Things are going fairly well. Well, they were this weekend, but H and I had a little tiff yesterday. We went to a movie and then dinner. Before, on the way to the theatre, we were talking about a reading he attended recently and OW didn't show up and he was glad. We were discussing it briefly and he said, "Don't mention OW. I don't want to talk about her anymore". Well, goody for him! Nice to know he can just put it all into a nice, little package and pretend it didn't happen! I said, "Wow, great for you. So glad that YOU'RE over it". Bit sarcastically, which was not in DB'ing mode, but it just got under my skin.

Then when we were having dinner, we were chatting briefly again and I mentioned some other mutual friends that I dislike. They're kind of friends of the group and I can't stand them. I'm polite, but they're, frankly, idiots and I limit my time around them. I was talking about someone unrelated, I think it was about referring someone for a job, and I mentioned that you have to be careful because you don't want it to reflect badly on yourself if it doesn't work out. I then said, for example, I'd never refer annoying friends' names. He then got irritated and said, "God, I know you don't like them. You don't have to constantly say it. I get the point. Just stop talking about it." I was like, "WTF? I don't mention them frequently. They're just the perfect example of flaky people. Get over it. I have to listen to you repeat yourself over and over again, ad nauseum. I just ignore it and would appreciate it if you could do the same". He got pissy with me and I just said that he couldn't control me and he'd have to get over it. I'll say and do what I want.

H is also annoyed because I am getting a $500 VISA gift card for being an overachiever this month at work (sold more than required and worked really hard) and I plan on using it for a motorcycle licensing course. This would be the 4th one I've received in the past year and I have used them for bills in the past. Well, I've earned this gift card, I'm not taking any money away from it, I worked really hard this month and I've always wanted to get my license. He can get over it (he thinks they're dangerous. I want to get a scooter, not a Kawasaki Ninja!). I want to do this and I will. It's also a part of GAL. I used to ride as a passenger with my Dad all the time and I want to do it again.

I also think he was just in a bad mood yesterday because he had to go to another reading and was nervous about it. He ended up having a really good time. But he was cranky about it for a while and I think this is why we had the little argument. I pretty much told him "I don't control you, you don't control me. I'll do and say what I want as long as it's not detrimental to the relationship". I felt like throwing in "...Wish I could say the same for you..." but I held back.

Honestly, it's like he wants to be free and do what he wants, but I can't. It's really irritating, but I'm just ignoring it. I'm not really the type of woman who allows anyone else to control her. I find it really presumptuous and rude that he would try to control my speech and actions.