From as I read your description above, you actually did believe that your M was done. No matter how emotional it was... how much you did not want it... how much you may have been emotionally on both sides of the fence...
You actually believed... BELIEVED... that your M was about to end in a D...
I truly believe that is where everyone's mind should be when they file.
I am quite certain that is what Autumn is thinking...
I just want to be sure...
One can't really live... unless they know they are truly... already dead...
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You reminded me of that very powerful scene from that movie. I have seen it said that the "You're Already Dead" -- along with "The Stockdale Paradox" -- is actually the kind of place you have to get to, emotionally, in order to successfully fight for a marriage torn by infidelity and/or other forms of abuse.