Its been a few days since I posted anything on my thread, so I thought I'd update my journal.
Had a good weekend all in all - my team Liverpool beat Everton to reach the FA cup Final (Soccer). Some of you guys might have heard of our team since that guy John Henry who owns the Boston Red Sox bought it.
I've been getting into the running big time, went out 4 times last week & I feel great for it, started doing some free weights & sit ups as well. So, going great guns with the exercise.
My W, went out on Saturday night on a hen night. I was fine with it, I even dropped her off @ where she was meeting up with her friends & she sent me a few text messages while she was out. I didn't think once, I wonder what she's doing - I was pretty busy doing work on my dissertation 'til about 3am & then after a couple of beers I went to bed. My W woke me up coming in @ 4:50am (pretty early in her book), but I got back to sleep fine.
On Sunday I went the library & did some more study & when I got back the laptop was left on a page showing a spa break deal at a hotel. I said, oh that looks nice, hey good deal!! She said oh yeah, that's where I'm going for my birthday with (insert girl's name here) friend. I never let it show, or said anything but I was a bit peeved at this, because we have a joint account & she just went ahead & booked it (normally when we spend anything big, we talk about it). I don't really care about her plans, that's her business, but I was a bit put out about her not showing the same courtesy we normally show each other. Oh well, I guess this is just a natural progression.
My W initiated sex last night, which was good (it always is), but it's starting to mean less and less to me (emotionally), just a physical need being fulfilled. I think this is due to my detaching, starting to kick in big time.
I'm enjoying UNI a lot more and interacting loads more with my friends on the course. This morning I got picked up by a couple of 21 year old girls to take me there & have been invited to their house party next month :-) I did my presentation today & it went brilliant, I was confident, my jokes were timely & well received & got plenty of smiles of the ladies throughout it. I got some really good feedback, mainly of the girls in my class and from one of my lecturers. I will find out next week how I did.
I went for coffee with my friends afterwards & had a laugh, then on my way out I bumped into a couple of my friends who I hadn't seen in a while, one of them is going to be on my course next year (happy about that).
I feel great at the moment, I'm open to happiness & I feel so much more outgoing & confident. I'm looking forward to the future, whatever happens.
I have realised one thing, for sure on my journey. I don't need someone else to make me happy. I want to keep on enjoying life, my kids & my ME time.
Bill
Me 34 W 32 D 9 S 6 M: 9 years T: 12 Bomb: 02/11/12 EA/PA: 12/17/11 - ongoing Moved out: Oct 2012 Joint Filed for D: 2/11/13
