Excellent replies above by peacetoday, snodderly and punkin...please do not be so hard on yourself...I DO understand, I beat myself up for months (and I did have reason to)...but at the end of the day...it is something that would have come, no matter what we did or did not do...I have struggled with this, fought it, could not accept it as I am rationally based in my life outlook...but, once I did figure it out (that this would have happened no matter where we lived, what job I had, etc, etc)...then a bit of wisdom, then acceptance, then some peace within me.
Once I accepted that this was my reality, and that God was trying to teach me something, and teach W something, and that we are given no more than we can handle, then I knew whatever happened would be right.
YOU will get there, YOU will know what to do, YOU will make the right decisions, YOU will know...it is a quiet voice, or feeling inside, that lets you know...
T^2
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
