Divorce....with a side of crazy...

[imthemom]

Interestingly enough...I make to much for any aid! unbeleavable to me but true. Im actually right at the cut off. So thats not going to work. But I did apply for 2 night time/ weekend jobs over the weekend and am crossing my fingers. Im afraid its going to screw with our settlement though..but dont really see that I have a choice. Ive gone as far to consider parking our trailer on a friends property and living there for a few months. Its a really nice trailer, with a master bedroom and bunk beds in the back, full kitchen and a small bathroom. It would be quite an ordeal but worth it to give me a chance to get back on my feet ....Im still rolling it around in my head. Id have to pay for storage for my stuff ...I dont know. I hate to do that to my S15 but I kinda ran it by him and he said what ever you have to do mom, ill do it.

I cant believe what our life was 2 yrs ago in a huge 4 bedroom 2 bath beautiful house with all the toys and a family of 5...and we are reduced to this...I feel like a bomb has gone off in my life.

forgot to mention that I heard from STBX on our anniversary...he sent an email basically saying he didnt want me to think he had forgotten the day. that he would always love me and that he had done things to me that he could probabley never repair. and he was sorry...
I simply responded that I had not forgotten the day either...

Then a friend told me he was on fb that same day making jokes and lols and smiley faces about the fact that it was our 18th anniversary and we were getting divorced...it made me sick. especially because our S15 is on his friend list. I sent him a message and let him know that he might want to delete that convo before our S15 saw it...Im pretty sure he would not think it was funny. He replied that he was sorry (again??) that he did not mean it to be funny and could see how it would be misunderstood. but again he was sorry.....what ever....

Hes a freaken idiot....
still no word from L about his response to our counter purposal. 2 more weeks till court date...

on the up side my softball team won our game tonight and then we went to pizza and beer...have a headache from laughing so hard...it was a fun game and night.