MrBond~ Thank you.... sometimes it's easy to forgot he's actually miserable, since he's trying to convince everyone including himself that he's doing great!
Speaking of doing great, I've had a great two days! Was able to pull myself out of my angry spell (lots of prayer!). Had a great time at the autism walk, we had such a beautiful day for it too!! I got to catch up with some friends I haven't seen in a long time, and see their 2 kiddos, their one daughter has autism, and just seeing her brightens my day! She was telling me all about a girl robot doll she wants (baby alive). lol
Of course my friends and I discussed my situation some, and as everyone else in normalville, they can not believe what has been going on, and are very empathic. Perhaps it just validated me even more talking with them because they are both in the medical field (a critical care nurse, and a child psychiatrist). At any rate it was wonderful to see some old friends, and visit the town I lived in while attending college. My friend and I stopped in a surprised my mom and her husband at their restaurant on our way home too, so it was nice visiting with them as well.
Today was a rather relaxing day, even with H being here and in an out of talking grumpy and being civil, and the typical ignoring. I watched a couple of movies and just relaxed! It was nice, even took a break from all the reading I have been doing! I hope I can keep up the positive thinking and the peacefulness I have inside right now. I've actually been dancing around the house and singing, despite the fact he refused my offer of eating some of the delicious dinner I made. I figure I can't change his choices, so why get upset, it's his loss, now I'll just have dinner for tomorrow night too! Yea.... go positive thinking!!!!
