@BeingMe: Of course this made me feel good and I spent time reflecting upon all of the emotions I felt these last few days. I am attracted to her, wholly inappropriate I know. There is good and bad in this. That I am healing enough to begin feeling again is good; however the depth of feeling and that it is about a married co-worker or a co-worker for that matter means I am not healed enough. I suspect this means if I were to begin dating and someone were to show interest I would become infatuated. This would be disastrous. I have more healing, more growing to do, more life to live.
Yes, I second BeingMe.
While it is great that your feelings are coming back, be cautious acting on those feelings if they are towards a married person. Maybe just enjoy the feelings for a day or two, and then ignore it and move on. Where married people are involved let your head rule.
One thing that has kept me 'clean' in that area is by saying to myself that I deserve to be number 1, not number 2, 3 or possibly 4 in line.
