I am sorry you are still struggling I have spent lots of time wondering the same things why why why. I don't know if we will ever know why and maybe your H doesn't exactly know why either. I think having small children makes it so much harder you can't just move on as easily. I do think you need to have a more structured visting schedule with the kids so that they know when they will see dad again and also so you know when you will get a break.
