Autumn

You sound like you are getting there. At least the day to day roller coaster stuff is behind you.

Your H is confused and also deep down he knows his choices a harmful to you and his family and ultimately himself.

You stepping away from fixing his guilt for him will make him deal with it directly if he ever chooses to do so.

Until that day. For you there is nothing to talk about.

keep stepping forward. You are making wonderful progress from what I can see.

My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am