New Here - I need help on this unexpected journey

[peacetoday]

GM
snodderly is right on
the MLCer does look like he gets to "have all the fun" in the beginning and we are the ones taking on all adult responsibilities
But after a while you will see his pain
you are dealing with your pain now and therefore yours will ease up in time BUT..he is running and will use anything to numb it for quite some time
so he is not painfree,, not fun only numb..Anyone could numb but that is probably not your choice nor mine
In time, you will understand more, for now just try to take care of yourself- make sure you rest eat sleep and talk to trusted persons..pray if your inclined to
peace
The time goes very fast
Peace