I'm so tired of struggling emotionally and financially. I'm burdened by living with my kids grief. Generally, I'm just tired. This is not the life I wanted or deserve. One person in a family should not have to do it all. How is it that I have the weight of the world on my shoulders and my H seemingly lives a carefree life? When does he get to feel the pain, stress and burden of the situation that he created? I can see why there are so few reconciliations. How many LBS's can really stand for their marriage and not become angry, bitter and resentful. Today is one of those days when I feel all of that. My H is not worthy of me. What he did was cruel. I badly want to get rid of any feelings and emotions that keep me connected to him in any way. I understand the temptation of finding a new relationship (although I have zero interest) to help deaden all of the pain. I look forward to the day when I'm not one of the walking wounded. Thank you all for going on this journey with me.
