At the last meeting I wrote a check to W for her half of the Fed tax refund. I made a mistake; the amount on the check did not match the description. It was a human error. I was under a little stress when I wrote it out. W returned the check to me with a brief factual note of the error and a SASE.
When I posted the envelope I noted she listed herself in the address as MRS. Odd as previously she has used her given name. It means nothing! At this time last year I would have attached great significance to this minor aberration. Now at this stage it is at best something to note.
Good perspective. It's interesting for sure.. but not more, nothing less.
Originally Posted By: JustStunned
Of course this made me feel good and I spent time reflecting upon all of the emotions I felt these last few days. I am attracted to her, wholly inappropriate I know. There is good and bad in this. That I am healing enough to begin feeling again is good; however the depth of feeling and that it is about a married co-worker or a co-worker for that matter means I am not healed enough. I suspect this means if I were to begin dating and someone were to show interest I would become infatuated. This would be disastrous. I have more healing, more growing to do, more life to live.
Other than the fact that she is a married woman, I see this as a very good step. Time really does heal the heart. We wonder how we will survive, yet we always do.
One day you will be ready and based on what I read above.. I have full faith that you will know when that is and how to move forward.
Keep on keeping on.
((( )))
M(f): 43 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
