looking for hope

[jc180]

Things are going okay. I've spent the past 4 days outside our home and I am having to adjust. My W called me 2 days ago to ask me where some stuff was in our house. I kept my answers brief. Yesterday she sent me a picture of our son finishing his dinner which he never does. Then today she text me asking how I was doing and if I wanted to see our son. This is strange behavior for her. I went back and checked her previous text and she has not not sent me a pic of him in over a month, let alone a text asking how I was doing. Each time I didn't respond. I am following the advice here and trying to show her what it is like to lose her husband. This is hard because I really miss them both. Even when my wife is angry at me I get something from her interacting with me. I am so desperate for attention from her I will even take the negative interactions.

Tomorrow I am taking a short trip out of town. I think it will do me some good. My buddy wants to go to see Joel Osteen.

When I go back home to switch places with my W I plan on being pleasant. I'm curious what she is going to ask me or if she will even talk to me. Thanks for the advice everyone.