Thank you truegritter, that is very wise smile I keep coming back to re-read that.

Well so far so good, with a few down moments. H took the day off on Friday to cut the grass, pack up and go while the kids weren't here.

I kept busy with my spring cleaning and was out of the house running a few errands. He waited for me to get back before leaving. He asked me for a hug, started to cry and when I was pulling back from the hug he held me there and said "this is not over"

I told him to have a nice weekend and would see him on Tuesday.

Then I found out that S15 had to be at the ball field for opening day this morning. When H texted I responded with time for the parade and he agreed to be there. He asked if he could park in the driveway (that was odd)

We both went to support S15 and S17 was working. It was pleasant. When it was over, he asked to come use the restroom. I went to get changed for the gym and he commented that I looked good. He leaned in to whisper "i love you". I just smiled and said "have a nice weekend, enjoy the weather"

So during my spring cleaning I went out and got all new bedding, I love it!! Today I have a few errands to run, and may catch a movie tonight if the kids are busy with friends. Tomorrow I am excited that a few of my close girlfriends are coming over for brunch, one just had a birthday and the other just got engaged. I'm really looking forward to it.

H asked me what I was going to tell them if they ask where he is, and before I could answer he said "oh yeah, i will be at the flyers game so just say that" He is trying to hide it and has only told a handful of people, asked the kids to keep it quiet.

I explained the boys, while we don't want to shout if from the rooftops, if they have a trusted friend they want to talk to, it is ok. They need to talk too. A bunch of their friends have been in their shoes.

Tomorrow morning is church before my girlfriends come over, so far its a good weekend!

-Autumn