Some excellent thoughts and I will try to address them.
I couldnt agree with you more on your first comment. She definitely doesnt know what she wants. Sometimes I find strength in that and sometimes depair. She has flip flopped her decision three times since October. First to divorce me,then she didnt know, then back to divorce and finally to separate. It has been quite a ride. And no I dont want to live my life this way.
I have been in love with my W for 33 years. In those years have I failed to be a good husband? You bet. Many, many times. I want to stay married to her for the rest of my days.
Yes I have to admit that it hurts when she doesnt text me back. I have expectations that are not meet. I think this is why I dont feel right about contacting her first. I must detach to have a change at reconciliation. Sounds funny to say that.
The recent times that weve communicated she has been cold and mean spirited. Before she moved out we were doing better. We had weathered rumors of an affair between her and a former friend. I thought it brought us closer together. Im not sure this was correct. I just dont understand what she is thinking.
